Hand Your Grievances Over To The Lord
Today was a rough day for me. I was sleep deprived, stressed and feeling like the world was a bit too much thanks to a week of night shifts at work.
And to be honest by the afternoon I lost it in my car. I lost it with the Lord. I swore, I raged, I was feeling pissed and frustrated with my current life situation and the choices I had previously made that were now causing financial stress, fatigue and feelings of being trapped.
So I wasn’t in a good head space. I’d gone totally into my flesh.
But you know what the Lord did and said.
He said - “I love you, Ellen. I Am here for you. Hand it all over to me.”
He did - fill up my space with His presence of peace and calm.
But you know what I did and said in response.
I resisted. I accused Him that it was all on me to figure it out because I put myself in that situation in the first place and what could He really do to help.
I felt even more agitated and who knows I was probably manifesting some old gnarly spirit that needed to come out that I needed deliverance from but I couldn’t fully give what was coming up to the Lord.
Instead I just wanted to rage at Him and the world and stay in a funky mood, I wanted to stay angry and I wanted to blame God and accuse Him of not transforming things to my little human desires, timings and expectations. I was basically behaving like an ungrateful little kid having a tantrum at the candy store.
It was ugly and something I needed to and did repent for when the farm noise in my head eventually calmed down.
When I finally calmed down and got home He guided me to take communion, anoint my body with some anointing oil and read Acts 9 about Paul being transformed by the Lord on the road to Damascus.
And then He said to me - “Ellen, if I can heal and transform a man like Paul, I can do the same to you. Trust. Ye of little faith.”
I then received the following love note from Him -
My child, you can rage at Me, you can be angry at Me, you can be resentful at Me, you can be bitter at Me, you can turn your heart from Me, these things you can choose to do but know this, I will still love you. I will still be here. I will still be waiting for you. I will still pour out My love for you on you and I will still bless you as you come in and as you go out. My love for you is unconditional and all your anger, rage, bitterness, resentments I will dissolve with My love, hand it over to Me, My child, and let me comfort you and restore your heart in Me and the love that I have for you. All is well. I love you.
God is so beautiful and today He taught me an important lesson on God’s love that it’s still available to us even when we are fully in our flesh and raging like a bull locked up in a pen.
Often our human minds conceive or believe God’s love to be conditional that we can’t fully trust Him, hand it over to Him or surrender to Him but we can. He is not asking us to be perfect little Jesus robots, we are human, we have our days where we feel messy, ugly, frustrated, angry, bitter, resentful, and something I realised today GOD IS HERE FOR ALL OF IT.
He wants to take your mess and transform it.
He wants to take your broken heart and heal it.
He wants to take your burdens and lighten your load.
He wants to take you out of the dark pit you’ve buried yourself in and into His glorious light and a new life and road of His grace.
But He can’t fully do it if like me today you're resisting, denying Him, not willing! Basically being a stubborn child. Because God has a little something about respecting your free will choices.
So repent for not allowing yourself to receive God’s love and allow Him to heal and restore you because if He can take a man like Paul and transform Him into a glorious man of God, imagine what He could do to and through you if you were only willing to say yes! And to believe in Him.
Yes, Lord, here I am, I hand it all over to you. Take it. I open my heart to receive Your love, healing and guidance for me, Lord, I say yes to You, Lord. Yes to You and all that You desire for me, Lord. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Lord. Amen.
God is here for you in it all and through it all and His love for you is unconditional, so if you think your mess, your rage, your tantrums would force God away you’ve got another thing coming cause God’s love for you is going nowhere.
So you might as well repent and hand your grievances and burdens over to the Lord and allow Him to love you, heal you, restore you and set you free from whatever burden you’ve been unwilling to let go of to the Lord.
Hand. It. Over.
You’ll feel all the more better for it.
Trust.
Remember.
All is well.
All for God,
Ellen xoxo
Scriptures To Reflect On
Psalm 62:8 (NKJV)
Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.”
2 Timothy 2:13 (NKJV)
“If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself.”
Lamentations 3:31–33 (NKJV)
“For the Lord will not cast off forever.Though He causes grief, Yet He will show compassion. According to the multitude of His mercies. For He does not afflict willingly, Nor grieve the children of men.”
Isaiah 30:18 (NKJV)
“Therefore the LORD will wait, that He may be gracious to you; And therefore He will be exalted, that He may have mercy on you. For the LORD is a God of justice; Blessed are all those who wait for Him.”
Psalm 147:3 (NKJV)
“He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds.”
1 John 4:18 (NKJV)
“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment.”
Matthew 11:28–29 (NKJV)
“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest…And you will find rest for your souls.”
Deuteronomy 28:6 (NKJV)
“Blessed shall you be when you come in, and blessed shall you be when you go out.”
Romans 8:38–39 (NKJV)
“For I am persuaded that neither death nor life… nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
